SIGH

sigh..maintain a relationship is not that easy
especially this one..why
because mayb this is not a right time for me
this 2 months i will be very busy,
cant accompany whenever he need me
and so do I
I got a feeling want to give up again
but I really not willing to do
and now so why I suffer on it
apart this, I m bad
I feel that my feeling to him is not love already
I really dont know how to do now
continue or just let it go
will I regret?
but if continue, izzit hurt him and also me?
And I oso afraid, afraid that he would hurt himself or even do sth bad
I know he is hard to give up.
So that why I have to act as bad to say broke up if I really want to.
Lyn said on siamies tat day is right.
If really dont wan, then must not care how sad of him
If not, then will get more hurt in the end.


But now, I dont know!!!!